Here it is ...
Apparently it is as easy as just jumping off a plane... ah I mean a train, that's right. Woah that was weird. As I said... Jumping off a train - or maybe just - getting off.
When your thinking gets onto a well beaten down train it does little to try and change the course of its direction - its fixed to the pre-existing tracks. You're brain/mind self just chills out, often goes stale, moulds and vegetates to the rhythms of predetermination and expectation.
You've been there before and it's nothing new.
Deeply etched patterns of thinking are often fairly negative. it's just so easy to know where you are going. It's unpleasant and cold yet you still do little to change it because at that moment all you are anticipating is the narrative - the following sequence of events. Oh that's right and now is the moment I close the door on my face... then slam my head against the wall ...well because I just slammed the door in my face!
It's unfortunate when this pattern sticks. The more you do something the more you become receptive to the things and triggers of that thing, the easier it is to jump back on and 'enjoy' the ride. We create paths in our mind.. and if there is a loud and clear path everything will try and make it's way to that one. The more it gets reinforced the harder you think it is to just get off.
As I was speaking with a friend... we concluded that it IS that simple... you can just get off... just jump off. Just like I jumped off a pile of 10 metre high rocks into salt water on the weekend. One of the most exhilarating things I've ever done. My sternum is bruised and my neck is sore - well worth it!